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Sat, Jun. 24th, 2006, 10:35 am

Currently reading:

The Stranger by Albert Camus

Tropic of Cancer by Henry Miller

A Moveable Feast by Ernest Hemmingway

Jesus' Son by Dennis Johnson

Done with :

Ham On Rye by Charles Bukowski

The Most Beautiful Woman in Town and other stories by Charles Bukowski

Notes of a Dirty Old man by Charles Bukowski

Less Than Zero by Brent Easton Ellis

Reading makes me forget what i'm going through.

If you wanna recommend anything to read lemme know .

Sun, Mar. 5th, 2006, 09:10 pm

When Bruce first joined Eskapo , he was 19, an avid fan of obscure international and local hardcore and was eager to play guitar for his first band. Loi , Luke , Max and I had already been playing together for 3 years or so but felt as if we needed an extra axeman to beef up the crunch. Bruce was punk to the nines , decked in black cut-off shorts held together by canvas band patches and a black vest studded with menacing spikes and pins.
Bruce was punk as fuck black and proud , half japanese with a third degree blackbelt in the art of Choy Li Foot.
A ninja with a wireless guitar , a comrade in arms who treated us like his own family.
Bruce was born half deaf so teaching him pre-existing songs and writing new material was a slow process for the first few weeks but the pace quickly picked up speed when he got so comfortable that he and I synchronzed jumps off the practice space wall , jumped off the bass drum and thrashed without abandon to the new and old Eskapo songs he interpreted so furiously. We as a band got faster and more aggressive the more his influenced came over us , his energy pushed us to our potential and made us more prolific with the new bands he was turning us onto.

When I was going through tough times and feeling suicidal , Bruce would never give up on me ,
he drove and accompanied me to the first poetry slams that i performed at , encouraged me to purge whatver I felt into music and words and telling me that harnessing this talent was a way to help my community.
He cheered me up by going to shows with me , doing walls of death in the pitt and stage diving off non-existent stages. Bruce told bad jokes and laughed at the ones I made in return.
In spring of 2004 we played a few dates in Mexico with La Plebe,
danced , drank and got blunted every night . I could tell Bruce was giving it his all at those shows,
he had a wicked smile on his face when he propelled himself and his guitar in the air,
landing with a thunderous whoomp and charging at the crowd , howling above the distortion.
He gave out free CD's and shirts to the local punks knowing that many could not afford to buy our merch.
Months later due to miscommunication, a difference of political opinions and many other bullshit reasons I can be held accounted for , Eskapo ended it's long and tired death march by calling it quits in Sept. 2005.

In November 2005 , Bruce told me that he had a brain tumor and would only have 4-6 months to live.
I did not know how to react but to say I love you and I'll do whatever makes you happy.
The first few months he set out a mission to form one more band by compiling most of the ex-members of Eskapo and putting together and political crust/hardcore band to be called the Machete Offensive. I told him that I could get his new band shows because we were all still friends and his new sound was anthemic , abrasive and good match for my new band.Bruce wrote all the music and lyrics for the Machete Offensive but was unable to fullfill the vocal duties due to the ravages of cancer and the chemotherapy that was supposed to cure him .

On Feb 28th 2006 , I recieved a call from our long time friend Bob who had been caring for Bruce for weeks.
He told me that Bruce's left lung was filled with fluid and that he might not live out the night.
I left work,rushed over to Kaiser hospital in Vallejo and waited 3 hours to see him.
My vision never truly focused on his emaciated state , all I saw was the brightly colored traditional Japanese tattoos he had inked on his arms,
I noticed his smile was still sly ,his arms were still strong when they gripped to hug me.
I cried in his fist and swore that I would never let him be forgotten , his songs would survive him .

Over 40 friends and family members came to visit Bruce at the hospital,
The doctors were amazed at how long he held on as most of his internal organs failed,
the meningitis swelled it's way into his eyes but Bruce fought it every agonizing step of the way because he saw so many people he had wanted to say goodbye to.
Bruce Webb lived long enough to see the sunrise and passed away in his sleep at 7:00 am Mar. 1st 2006.

I'm sorry Bruce that I couldn't stay when you told me to hang around a little longer,
I'm sorry Bruce that sometimes I'm an inconsiderate prick that booked too many shows for you to play,
I'm sorry Bruce that I couldn't have visisted you more often when you were sick.

I love you Bruce , I miss your bad jokes ,
I miss seeing you to my left on stage thrashing around and playing your wireless like it was a M-16,
I miss going to shows with you and adding one more black band shirt to my collection of 50,
I miss you .
I love you Bruce.

- Rupert

Tue, Feb. 28th, 2006, 02:00 am
Patalsikin ang Berdugo

I know I don't post much ,
Sometimes I'm too busy or I don't feel like posting my day to day personal views and
feelings for everyone to dissect but the situation in my home, the land of my birth
the Philippines where my immediate family and good friends still live are about to experience
a second declaration of martial law by Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo.
The media has been seized, it is illegal to protest or rally and anyone connected to the left ,
may they be local labor and community organizers and activists to congressmen to priests, professors
and human rights lawyers are being arrested and detained

I am a martial law baby , born in St Luke's hospital, Quezon City in 1977.
My family lived through the marcos dictatorship and were
religous yet leftist during the People Power revolution.
I know they may not be proud of what I've become or what I stand for
but I love my people , I will return home one day to see my loved ones
I don't want them to go through this again.

Huwag na nating talikuran ang totoong kalagayan ng ating pinanggalingan.
Ang dami nang namatay , maraming mga kaibigan at kamag-anak natin ay naging
martyr sa paglaban sa mga unang taon ni GMA.
Marami tayong karapatan dito sa bayan ng dayuhan, marami tayong maitutulong sa
mga kasama nating nakabihag at pinatahimik .
Kontralado na ng pamahalan ang medya, bawal mag-rally at pinagiinitan na
ang mga partidong progressibo.
Aanihin natin ang tagumpay.

Pls. re-post this in solidarity :

Support the online protest of Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo's declaration of a "state of emergency" in the Philippines. She is effectively returning the Philippines back to the dark days of Martial Law under Marcos--warrantless arrests, media censorship, outlawing peaceful protest--all in an attempt to keep her loosening grip on power. Upload the above image as your default photo for your profile in a show of solidarity until she is ousted through people power. To post this message to your friends' pages, copy the HTML from the BAYAN USA "OUST GMA" Online Action Page. Spread the word!!!

For news updates, visit bayanusa.org, bulatlat.com, and indymedia.

Mon, Jun. 6th, 2005, 04:01 pm
Chronology Of Reynaldo Cortez's Case

I am reposting this from a bulletin on an online community...
just found it to be too reminiscent of Flor Contemplacion.

ge: Chronology of Rey Cortez case:
Message: May 2002
Rey arrested for the alleged murder of a Pakistani
taxi driver; Rey maintains his action was in self-
defense. Before arresting him, Saudi Arabian
shot Rey twice in the left foot even after he
raised his arms to surrender.

Previous to his arrest, Rey was a welder at the Al-
Allah Car Workshop in Riyadhs Sinaya District.
He first went to Saudi Arabia in 1993 and his wife
says he planned to return home for good June
2002 to set up a motor repair shop. He is the
father of six children ranging from 6 years old to
years old.

December 22, 2003
Judge Mohammad Abdul Aziz Al-Sheikh and two
other judges of the Riyadh Grand Court find Cortez
guilty of the charge murder and frustrated murder;
the Judges sentenced him to 15 years
imprisonment and 1,000 lashes

November 27, 2004
Following an appeal filed by Cortez with the
Appellate Court, the court upon hearing his claim
that he killed the taxi driver in self-defense,
his jail sentence to 10 years.

May 11, 2005
Noting that the victims private right or computation
of blood money was not addressed, a hearing on
the victims private right was held in the Riyadh
Grand Court; Judge Mohammad Abdul Aziz Al-
Sheikh asked the victims brother if they would
accept SR100,000 in blood money but the victims
brother rejected the offer and any other amount.

May 30, 2005
Reys sentence is read to him by the Riyadh Grand
Court Judge through a Filipino court interpreter.

Mon, Jun. 6th, 2005, 03:59 pm
Petion To Save The Life Of Filipino Migrant Worker Reynaldo Cortez

Message: Dear Colleagues and Friends,

Warm greetings from MIGRANTE!

We are appealing to you all to sign the petition
(within your respective country/region) to help
the life of an overseas Filipino worker who has
unjustly sentenced to death in Saudi Arabia.
Please see the Petition below.

We hope that you can also help us in gathering
more signatures among your networks.

Thank you very much in anticipation.

In solidarity with the migrants,

Connie Bragas-Regalado
MIGRANTE Chairperson

Her Excellency Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo
Republic of the Philippines
Malacanang Palace, Manila

Dear President Macapagal-Arroyo,

We, the undersigned organizations, institutions,
churches and individuals, appeal to your
government, to immediately take the most
appropriate actions to save migrant worker
Reynaldo Cortez from death row in Saudi Arabia.

Reynaldo Cortez, a car body technician who killed
a Pakistani taxi driver in self-defense, was
sentenced to death by a Riyadh high court last
May 30, 2005.

A 39-year old Bicolano and resident of Guagua,
Pampanga, Cortez was abandoned by Philippine
Ambassador Bahnarim Guinomla as no embassy
representatives were present during the court
proceedings, including May 30.

In December 22, 2003, Judge Mohammad Abdul
Aziz Al-Sheikh and two other judges of the Riyadh
Grand Court found Cortez guilty of the charge of
murder and frustrated murder, and sentenced him
to 15 years imprisonment and 1,000 lashes.

Cortez filed an appeal in the Riyadh Appellate
Court. On November 27, 2004, the court, on
hearing his claim that he had killed the taxi driver in
an act of self-defense, reduced his jail sentence
10 years.

On May 11 this year, in a hearing on the victim's
private right in the Riyadh Grand Court, Judge
Muhahmmad Abdul Aziz Al-Sheikh asked the
brother of the victim if the family would be willing
accept blood money of 100,000 Saudi Riyals, but
the brother rejected the offer or any other amount
money. The family insisted on the death sentence
by beheading.

Under Shariah law, as regards private right, the
victim's family has the option of pardoning the killer
and accepting blood money, in which case the
death sentence can be annulled. A doting father of
six children, Cortez has to be saved.

We are appealing to Philippine President Gloria
Macapagal-Arroyo to use her offices to do all
possible diplomatic means to save Reynaldo

It is only you, President Macapagal-Arroyo who
can diplomatically intervene and seek dialogues
with the Pakistan and Saudi Arabia governments
plead with the relatives of his victim to forgive
Cortez and accept blood money.

President Macapagal-Arroyo, the fate of Reynaldo
Cortez is now in your hands.

Madam President, we call on you to listen with
compassion to Filipino migrant workers and to take
positive actions to save Reynaldo Cortez and all
other distressed Filipinos in the Middle East.

We also appeal to you to employ the fullest
diplomatic intervention to all the 1,115 overseas
Filipinos including 12 in death row who are in
various jails across Saudi Arabia.

These migrant workers, like Reynaldo Cortez,
forced to leave the Philippines to find jobs abroad
order to feed their families and in effect help prop
up the economy with their dollar remittances. The
least thing that government should do is extend
free, timely, appropriate and full assistance to
Cortez and all distressed Filipino migrant workers
and their families.

We also request the same for all Filipinos who are
stranded in Middle East nations such as Kuwait,
Jordan, United Arab Emirates and Saudi Arabia.

We demand that Philippine Ambassador to Riyadh
Bahnarim Guinomla be recalled and expelled from
the government service for his gross dereliction of
his duties to provide timely and appropriate legal
assistance to Cortez and other distressed Filipinos
in Saudi Arabia. At least four (4) Filipino migrant
workers were beheaded last March 14, 2005 in
said country since no legal and consular
assistance were given to them.

Madam President, the time to act is now.

Migrants rights are human rights!
Save the life of migrant worker Reynaldo Cortez!
Justice for all jailed Filipino migrants in Saudi
Oust Philippine Ambassador Bahnarim Guinomla!

Tue, May. 17th, 2005, 10:03 am

I know I haven't posted in a while but since the Eskapo website is down and under construction ...
I'm just gonna post our schedule for upcoming shows and you can later refer to www.eskapo.net for more details later on.

Saturday May 28th 2005-8:00
Balazo 18
at 18th and Mission
San Francisco CA. 94101

and more tba

all ages ,7 bux at the door, starts at 8


Sunday May 29, 2005 - 3:00
Club Kaos
39148 State St.

Sun May 29th

all ages ,5 bux ,starts at 3 . All Ages starts at 3:00early show but it's 5 measely bux at the door!


Sturday July 2nd 2005 -7pm sharp!!!
924 Gilman
Berkely CA.




Tue, Apr. 12th, 2005, 03:31 pm

Keep going old man ,
give your life so that a young woman can live ,
that seems like a fair trade .

- Hartigan,
Sin City

Happy BerfDay to me .

Sun, Mar. 27th, 2005, 07:13 pm

For those who give a shit and for those who don't ,
Eskapo will be recording a number of new and unrecorded songs next sunday .
We've been MIA due to deaths in our immediate circle , deaths in our community , sickness , surgery, financial instability , marriage and career trials and tribulations .

Through all this Luke,Rupert,England,Bruce,Loi and Max have been praticing and writing new material for the upcoming projects and releases at least 3-4 times a week .

The Song list :

Segundo (A Second)
Balewalang Samahan (Useless Brotherhood)
First Vietnam
Katolisismo (Catholiscm)
The Fall Of the I-Hotel
Ang Bagong Hukbo (The New Army)
Bayang Inutang (A Country In Debt)
Martyr Ng Manggawa (Martyr of the Working Class , A song for Flor Contemplacion)
Proletariat Struggle
Tumakas Sa Dilim (Escape into the Darkness)

Here's our next show put on by Urban Guerrilla Zine :
April 23rd Show at Confusion Arcadia Skate Hotel all ages !!
Body: Confusion Arcadia Skate Hotel
1638 West 7th St.

all ages , 6 bux , starts at 8


come out and support
it's a UGZ show !!!

Tue, Mar. 22nd, 2005, 01:43 pm
piNoisepop Asian American Music Festival is back ! ! !

piNoisepop Asian American Music Festival is back ! ! !

Attention: Bands that have played the past festivals

Only a few selected bands that have played the festival in the past will be asked again to perform. We are giving a chance to a new set of bands. We will contact you if we are interested in booking you again. Thank you for understanding.


Punk - Indie - Emo - Hardcore - Powerpop - HipHop - Indigenous - Alternative - Swing - Tribal - Screamo - Folk - Instrumental - New Wave - Garage - Metal: Thrash/Death/Crossover - Traditional/Cultural - Rockabilly - Reggae - Performing Arts - Grindcore - Ska - Twee - Rock - Novelty - Electronica - Country/Blue Grass - Jazz - Noise - Experimental

For Immediate Release:

Bindlestiff Studios presents and in cooperation with the National Endowment for the Arts.

piNoisepop 9 - Asian American Music Festival

Because of all the help and support from all the Kids in the scene, we are proud to announce piNoisepop 9: Filipino American and Asian American Music Festival. The All Ages festival will take place on August 26-27, 2005 at SomArts Cultural Center.

Please send 2-4 song good quality demo tape/CD/7 " record and include band info (bio, 3 contact phone numbers, 3 email addresses of the members, website info)

Mail to:
piNoisepop Music Festival
Attn: Gonzales
380 22nd Ave., No. 3
San Francisco, CA 94121

DEADLINE: May 1, 2005 (we should receive the demo package on or before this date).

- Must have originals
- Must have at least 1-3 asian members in the Band. The more, the merrier.
- Out of Area/State bands should have no problem playing a Friday night show
- We are not responsible for the band's airfare and hotel expenses
- Please do not email us your band website address and MP3/audio page
- We don't like contracts from bands, managers, or record labels

If your band gets selected, please wait for phone call or email.

Please remember that Bindlestiff Studio is a 501C3 Non-Profit Organization and we don't make money out of this festival. The groups of people behind the festival are musicians and they're doing it for the love of music and not for the love of money.

Attention: Non-profit organizations, Zinesters/Comic book Artists. If you are interested in having a merch table during the event, please email me. Only 2 representatives from the organization are allowed to work each night.

Interested in volunteering, festival questions and inquiries: pinoisepop@yahoo.com
Pinoisepop website

piNoisepop Reviews, Articles, and Photos:

piNoisepop 3 review (Manila Girl, 1999)

piNoisepop: OPM goes West (Philmusic, 2000)

piNoisepop 4 review (Generation Rice, 2000)

piNoisepop 6 review (Yolk Magazine, 2001)

piNoisepop 6 review (Youth for Peace, 2001)

Immigrant Songs (SF Weekly, 2002)

Bring the piNoise (SF Weekly, 2002)

Bring the piNoise (Perfect Pitch, 2003)

piNoisepop 8 review (Indie Culture Records, 2003)

piNoisepop 8 (picture gallery, 2003), credits: David Huang of Poetic Dream

Ating Tao pictures at piNoisepop 5

About piNoisepop:
One of the only Asian/Filipino American music festivals in the country, piNoisepop recruits Asian/Filipino American bands from all over the U.S. to perform original music; focusing on bands that are willing to create and perform their own sound through the exploration and experimentation of various music genres, including rock, punk, hip-hop, jazz, indigenous, folk, and world music. The Festival derives its name from the slang term “pinoy” or “pinay,” meaning Filipino man or woman; and “noise” which defines the spontaneous sound of our music. Since its inception in 1998, the Festival has featured over 300 bands, comedians, spoken word artists, dancers, and filmmakers. In three sold-out nights, the Festival features 20 bands, introducing a diverse array of Asian American artists to a broad audience, and helping young artists advance their careers. The Festival was originally conceived as a venue for Filipino American musicians in the Bay Area. In its second year, organizers were stunned to receive applications from Filipino American bands across the country who had heard of the Festival’s extraordinary inaugural success. By the third year, the Festival had expanded to include bands from other Asian American communities and presentations in other disciplines. In 2002, the Festival led to a four-month national tour, introducing youth in different cities to the exciting experience of contemporary Asian American music.

About Bindlestiff Studio
Bindlestiff Studio is a Filipino American artistic hub that provides artists a space that nurtures artistic development. Its mission is to provide an affordable, professional, small performing arts venue where new and veteran artists can take creative--without financial--risks. Anchored by the Filipino American community and its artists, Bindlestiff Studio endeavors to educate the public about Filipino American culture and the arts through theatrical presentations, public workshops, concerts, readings, and other events. Its programming seeks to emphasize original work and experimentation with the integration of various disciplines: performance, visual and literary arts, film/video and music. As the first Filipino American Theater in the nation, Bindlestiff Studio continues to be at the vanguard through the efforts of its artists and community that supports it.

About the National Endowment for the Arts
The National Endowment for the Arts is a public agency dedicated to supporting excellence in the arts, both new and established; bringing the arts to all Americans; and providing leadership in arts education.

About SomArts
SomArts operates the South of Market Cultural Center under contract to The San Francisco Art Commission. We are one of four Community Cultural Centers under the supervision of the Community Arts and Education Program with funding from The Hotel Tax Fund.

Since 1979 SomArts has been providing low-cost rental space and equipment to communities and arts groups. SomArts' large size, its flexible performance spaces and its spacious art galleries afford local artists the opportunity to artistically exploit the venue's multidisciplinary possibilities.

SomArts' technical services branch offers stage, sound, lighting and consultation for major street fairs and festivals in San Francisco. Serving all the neighborhoods, cultural groups, art organizations and individual artists who bring their work to multicultural audiences throughout San Francisco.

Support the local bands, the scene, and the Kids in the community.

Ogie Gonzales
Jesse Gonzales

piNoisepop 9
Asian American Music Festival
August 26-27, 2005
SomArts Cultural Center (Main Gallery)
934 Brannan St.
San Francisco, CA, 94103

The festival is presented by Bindlestiff Studios and is in cooperation with the National Endowment for the Arts.

Mon, Mar. 14th, 2005, 09:27 am

I really needed this weekend .

Friday : I went with Norm to help out with loading equipment at the Club Lamia Manila Town Fundraiser . Jesse Gonzales was at the helm of organizing this event and hooking up the P.A. , the bands were not really my style of music but the films , "Manila Bayou" ( a film about the first Pinoy immigrants to the U.S. that settled in Lousiana ) and another film about Kali ( Pinoy martial arts ) was cool to watch .

For the most part , I just hung out with Kuya Phil and Robert Marquez , talked with Maya and chain smoked while keeping it classy with my brown bag 16oz of Bud . It was a good night all around though, I could've done without the music , it reminded me of Color Me Badd .

Saturday : Native Guns fuckin rocks , militant , armed to the teeth with razor sharp rhymes and beats !
Regie Cabico , one of the pioneers of Pinoy slam poets was there from New York and his set was amazing .
It was like a raunchy , steamy , interactive one man show about sex ,bathing with a Tabo in Pangasinan and the Barrel Man . I really needed to laugh that night and I was rolling from Regie's set .
Proletariat Bronze did our set ( I filled in for Jaylee) and it felt good to be able to perform poems like "Home Cooking (Lutong Bahay) , Colony and more in front of my kababayan because they all got the jokes in Home Cooking even though they cringed in the parts where I ate a Cop and Jesus . One girl said I terrified her when I did Colony and sometimes I forget how much seething hatred bleeds through my voice in that piece and since I've had to do it so many times in front of unfriendly crowds , I tend react on instinct and pull no punches .
After the show , Mesaj , Sherline , Jaybay ,Regie ,Jimmy and myself sat , had sake and food .
I needed to laugh that night and I did .

We also hung out at Carolyn's house that night with Bao, Nomi , Tai and some other folks . We took pictures with our sandatas in front of a Philippine flag and I'm sure Bao will post up the pictures on his LJ because they look fuckin HARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGDDDDDD !!!

Sunday: I went over to Justin's house and watched the Ramen Days ( a documentary about the resurgence of DIY hardcore / punk due to the punk utopia venue called Burnt Ramen ) and saw many bands,folks and scenesters I recognized .
Bruce picked us up and we went to John Patrick's in Alameda for a barbeque with the Pyrate Punx Marcus Blackdawg,Jay Unidos and the Urban Guerrilla crew . Although we only stayed for the 2 openeing bands , they still were brutal and rippin . New Earth Creeps was like the Misfits on Metal with tongue in cheek lyrics and One In the Chamber( ex members of El Dopa ) was sludgey and grinding , stonerrfic doom crusty shit !!!
Wished I could've stayed to see Creepy and all those other bands but Justin missed his dog , so we headed home .
I had a really good weekend , one that I did not expect .
I'm glad I didn't stay home and read comic books all night long while watching my laundry dry .
Thanks friends for being here .

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